why not?

Ever have those mornings where you wake up and pour your cereal in a bowl because you're supposed to, thats what you do every morning.  Suddenly realizing i'm not hungry I pour half back.... but still keep and force down half, just because. It's kinda like when I'm at work, and everyone else is drinking water so i find myself guilty for wanting cherry pepsi in that styrofoam cup of mine.  Why not? why not drink a pepsi! i start to wonder aloud.  Then the 5'2" loud mouth girl who was later fired that day (forcing me to stay longer) pipes in "Because it's bad for you!"...... yea?.... bad for you?... well so is that fatty enchilada your about to consume. hmmmm. I believe i'll be the judge as to what's bad for me or not. but don't hold me to that.  

This brings me to my ultimate safe harbor. "why not".  whenever i am feeling guilty for something stupid like a cherry coke, or a lazy weekend i'll just say that phrase.  If i cant think of a reason that ultimately (but quickly) leads to death or despair, i wont hesitate another moment.  As I'm writing this, I'm really thinking its just the mood I'm in at the moment, and i'll randomly change my mind later on. who knows. 

Do you ever think about how sometimes we get so caught up in looking forward to things that we never experience them?  I feel like i spend most my time looking forward to something so much that by the time its there, and I'm in that moment, i've already moved on and am wasting my time looking forward to something else. Why do i do that?? why cant everything just come as a pleasant surprise...i think i'll work on that.

As a conclusion I have to say that this blog has no relevance to the world and i was pretty much just rambling.  I wont have many blogs like this one, most will seem a bit random at first but go into something worth reading.  maybe.  For those who will read my other thoughts just know: I'm a horrible speller (I hate this, but there is nothing i will do about it for now), I wont capitalize the letter "i" unless it puts a red squiggly under it which drives me to insanity, and I tend to switch tenses a lot (i am working on this one for reals). but its the thought that counts right? goodbye for now.