rant-ollage

Things that bother me today:
1. Running around town to find a stupid video for a class that I should have already watched, and never finding it.
2. Waiting about 7 minutes for a video to load on facebook just for it to have a litte box pop up that says ;laksjoir3984uqorija; error, and all you can do is push the only button available that says "okay" as if saying "its cool, no worries i'll come back and waste more of my time later"....no its not "OKAY".....
3. Working with stupid human beings and making only 25 dollars. If you see me sitting with over 100 empty salt and pepper shakers that need to be filled in 15 minutes before we open, and you are standing around doing nothing....what should one do??? Apparently this is a higher level thinking question. So excited to do it all over again tomorrow night!!
4. Not getting days off that i requested weeks ago for doctors appointments. I'm not going to reschedule them...sorry :/
5. Dance tonight with no Janelle and soar throat. aka going to miss so you think you can dance YET AGAIN.

Things i do like about today:
1. Buying Amy and Eddies EPIC birthday present :)
2. one step closer to the weekend.

why not?

Ever have those mornings where you wake up and pour your cereal in a bowl because you're supposed to, thats what you do every morning.  Suddenly realizing i'm not hungry I pour half back.... but still keep and force down half, just because. It's kinda like when I'm at work, and everyone else is drinking water so i find myself guilty for wanting cherry pepsi in that styrofoam cup of mine.  Why not? why not drink a pepsi! i start to wonder aloud.  Then the 5'2" loud mouth girl who was later fired that day (forcing me to stay longer) pipes in "Because it's bad for you!"...... yea?.... bad for you?... well so is that fatty enchilada your about to consume. hmmmm. I believe i'll be the judge as to what's bad for me or not. but don't hold me to that.  

This brings me to my ultimate safe harbor. "why not".  whenever i am feeling guilty for something stupid like a cherry coke, or a lazy weekend i'll just say that phrase.  If i cant think of a reason that ultimately (but quickly) leads to death or despair, i wont hesitate another moment.  As I'm writing this, I'm really thinking its just the mood I'm in at the moment, and i'll randomly change my mind later on. who knows. 

Do you ever think about how sometimes we get so caught up in looking forward to things that we never experience them?  I feel like i spend most my time looking forward to something so much that by the time its there, and I'm in that moment, i've already moved on and am wasting my time looking forward to something else. Why do i do that?? why cant everything just come as a pleasant surprise...i think i'll work on that.

As a conclusion I have to say that this blog has no relevance to the world and i was pretty much just rambling.  I wont have many blogs like this one, most will seem a bit random at first but go into something worth reading.  maybe.  For those who will read my other thoughts just know: I'm a horrible speller (I hate this, but there is nothing i will do about it for now), I wont capitalize the letter "i" unless it puts a red squiggly under it which drives me to insanity, and I tend to switch tenses a lot (i am working on this one for reals). but its the thought that counts right? goodbye for now.